I’ve had a year, #CoSo
My mother and stepmother were both diagnosed with breast cancer. My father was diagnosed with early-onset Alzheimer’s. My 40-year-old BIL had a stroke that almost killed him and was in the ICU for just over 40 days.
I’m just so tired. Sorry for a moment of self-pity.
You all are great. Great community. When I get a chance I come in for a breath of fresh air.
Also, go #CoSoPro
@AI78 hang in there and take care of yourself. You're no help to anyone else if you're in the hospital too.
@MorningMoon yeah. My BILs stroke convinced me to get more serious about my health. While I’ve been active and otherwise good health, I’ve always had high BP. It’s now down to the 120s/80s and my cardiologist is pleased.
Thanks for the kindness.
@MorningMoon You're absolutely right. You push yourself so hard. But it's not enough and while you know it's not your fault you still internalize it. Stepping away is so hard. But it has to happen.
@AI78 For me it's been a constant sense of guilt that I'm not doing enough. Logically I know I was doing everything I could. My mother suffered and I just couldn't do enough to take the pain and fear away. My husband's struggles were more emotional. Struggling to keep a positive attitude, accepting changes to his body, etc. It's rough. If I had known going in what I would be dealing with, I would have given myself the ok to take a few hours every week just for me. I wish you all the best.
@AI78 You're welcome. Just went through something similar, husband's bladder cancer and mother's congestive heart failure, kidney disease and dementia. She passed away in July at 90. That kind of stress is a killer. I knew I was pushing myself and neglecting my own mental and physical well being. Not that I had much choice. Now I'm trying to put myself back together. I hope things settle down for you soon.