Finished season 2 of "Picard" tonight. That last episode was hard to watch. It finally hit real close to some of my own traumas that I had already recognized it was dancing around. Healing hurts, though...and this was important for me. Those characters raised me, and now they're guiding me one last time.
I bet season 3 is going to be rough.
I have now knitted 26 out of 1,000 hexagons for my blanket, so I have... Hold on...carry the 1...
A lot more to go!
Being laid up in bed has given me plenty of time for writing today. Is it good quality? I don't care at this point. I'm putting ideas into words. They can be trimmed and polished some other time.
#CoSoWriting
Formal Proof That the Universe Is Neither Cruel Nor Kind, and That This Is the Greatest Conceivable Horror
by Danielle Blau
I know what the intention of the words is. I feel, though, that complimenting talent instead of skill unconsciously programs us to think, "I can't do that thing because I wasn't lucky enough to be able to do it perfectly within 5 mins of seeing someone else do it. That other person is lucky that it's easy for them."
I've spent my whole life so far being TOO concerned about pleasing other people. Thinking I would be safe if I figured out how to keep other people happy. I'm ready to do what makes me happy, and spread that joy to others. And try to stop worrying so much (I'll still worry some) about the people who refuse to receive that.
I am 45 years old. I spent the first 38 years trying to make someone proud of me who, even if we were still in contact, never would be. Then I spent 7 years accepting that and grieving. It's a special kind of hurt when a parent and child just don't "fit" with each other.
I'm going to make ME proud of me. Despite all the times I've been accused of being "so proud of yourself", or not caring about other people "because you only care about yourself"... No. That was never it.
Bard with a ukulele. Friend of Lake Monster. 93% stardust. Autistic. Fabulously weird.