At the peak of my delusional #eatingdisorder / body destruction in 2012, I took a fully nude picture and posted it on G+ (@divisionbyzero I'm sure remembers 🤣) Where I showcased everything wrong with my body and to chart my #healthtracking goals for hitting my ideal weight.

I had a blog where I meticulously documented my 4 1/2 hours of DAILY workouts, my starvation diet, every morsel of food I ate once a week, and all my struggles to figure things out with no doctor and no insurance.

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This was when I knew nothing about how my body actually worked, didn't understand how #PCOS, #Hashimotos, thyroid issues, #cortisol response, #InsulinResistance, fat storage in response to obsessive cardio and not eating, extra #testosterone, as well as all the other the hormones my body put out to deal with #chronicpain, actually affected my weight and overall body. I was always under the impression, and made to feel by EVERYONE including previous doctors, that I was lazy and ate too much.

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But as I learned over the course of 12 years ... NONE of my problems actually had anything to do with FOOD or how much I did or didn't EXERCISE. And that starving myself and over exercising RUINED my body more and caused my metabolism to crash and burn.

I know now - thanks to 12+ years of obsessive data collection, correlations, my own self-education, and finally doctors who listen and READ said data - that ALL of my problems were hereditary issues ... unfixable by me or anything I tried.

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@thewebrecluse So frustrating.

I found an multi-generational ongoing study on the effects of DDT on generations of people.

It shows so far that there was not much impact on the women or girls who were first exposed to DDT or their children, but their grandchildren are being affected. Easy weight gain/difficult weight loss is one of the symptoms.
My Nana said she anther siblings would go play in the garden right after it was sprayed with DDT. They didn't know any different.