The detoxing from Twitter is a process. It is difficult for some to accept the fact that Twitter isn't a real place. There are millions of fake accounts, bots, and socks using automation to drive derision because it sells, and drives the product(yes you are their product) to provide data they can sell. We are social creatures & thinking you were engaging 20K people is a drug hiding in plain sight. Civility & empathy are dead there, its a corner stone here.