So, I kinda want to touch on Adult ADHD and it's impact on my life. I know a lot of people don't have a full understanding of how varied the symptoms of the disorder are so I just wanted to share my own experiences living with it. It's not a "OH SHINY" sort of distracted mind sort of condition but it can be hard to live with untreated, and without support. 1/? #MentalHealth #ADHD

I was diagnosed with ADHD at the age of 6 yrs old, but in the 80's and 90's fem individuals were considered something close to a medical myth, beyond rare and weren't taken seriously in requesting for support or treatment during those decades. My own case went largely ignored the majority of my life, and I'm only beginning to get the support and care I needed to work through much of the issues the condition presented me with through my life. 2/? #MentalHealth #ADHD

I was mistaken for stupid, illiterate, and incapable of learning a functioning adult role, as a child. I was placed in Special Education classes during my education years, and only maybe one or two teachers really understood the trials I was dealing with. I had an extremely short attention span, loved reading so much I read ahead many of my classes and did work on my own time span that often was ahead of my fellow students. 3/? #MentalHealth #ADHD

However, I did have a teacher that bridged that gap in support and understanding what I was living with and she was able to get me tested to see where my strengths were in education. According to the tests I was put through, I was estimated to be in post grad/post college grade level in reading comprehension, writing, as well as social studies and civics. My math skills suffered but mainly because of the US teaching methods. Common core BS. 4/? #MentalHealth #ADHD

As an adult, ADHD does post a good deal of problems for me - I'm unable to focus on a single task at a time for extended periods, and need to take frequent breaks to reframe and focus, and sometimes lose track on conversations if it's a topic that my brain decides to leap to a variety of different subjects connected in some manner. It's troubling, and hard to live with, without the support and treatment that therapy provides. 5/? #MentalHealth #ADHD

But think about the goals that most fem bodied selves hope to attain in the timespan I've lived, 42 years, and I've had 5 children, who knows how many grandchildren, and a loving husband that understands that I am transitioning to nonbinary, a tomboy. I've never actively been able to hold down a steady job, and todays methods of job training are an absolute joke for someone like me. Not because I'm smart, shit...I know I can be dumb as hell sometimes, even oblivious. 6/? #MentalHealth #ADHD

However, between the meltdowns I suppress, and the symptoms of ADHD fucking me over in regards to focusing and absorbing educational content, or training material, traditional jobs and working environments are a nightmare for me. It's why I am an AI artist, I can focus on creating and producing beautiful portraits and expressing myself artistically even in writing whereas in any other field I would collapse mentally and lose myself entirely. 7/? #MentalHealth #ADHD

So, I get down to the reason I'm talking about this. I've heard so many children talk about their ADHD and complain about adults not understanding what it's like where I know so many adults with this disorder too and are struggling with it every single day. It's important to remember that the fight a person has may not be the same as your own, but being kind, and trying to understand it from their side of things is part of being human and social with each other. 8/? #MentalHealth #ADHD

All I'm saying is that sometimes, you have to look beyond what is spoken and read the behavior and facial expressions to really get it. It's not easy, I know, it's hard to meet others gaze, especially complete strangers, I'm especially shy of that, but I try, I push myself, and yes, it can at times leave me burnt out and feeling shelled out and empty because of how exposed I feel afterwards. Adult ADHD and ADHD in general can be emotionally taxing, and hard to live with. 9/? #MentalHealth #ADHD