@Jezibaba Through burner friends, she started dating a really good artist friend of ours and we just clicked really quickly. Last time we caught up in person was our bday last year and we had a big talk about processing trauma and grief, about depression and having to rebuild the self when the foundations get shattered. I understand her struggle and why she did what she did but also the tragedy of knowing she'd have been disappointed she followed through in a dark moment. ❤️

@lilyunsub It sounds like she was trying and then got overwhelmed. I understand what you mean about why she did it and her being disappointed at succumbing. How are you doing?

There's a really good chance you'll see her now in your dreams. A chance to see each other again.

@Jezibaba @lilyunsub This is actually quite common to happen following a death of someone you are close to. Are you doing okay Lily? Do you need anything we can help with?

@PaganMother @Jezibaba we're doing ok ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ just letting whatever feelings come wash over us x

@lilyunsub @Jezibaba Acceptance, a hard thing to learn - I'm trying to learn how to do that, it can be extremely tough to do.

@lilyunsub @Jezibaba Much love and comfort hugs to you and the collective dear, this can't be easy for you but we are all here for you if you need us.

@lilyunsub ❤️

@PaganMother

@Jezibaba Yeah very much so. We connected on the shared understanding of the overwhelm and how it can feel unrelenting like time doesnt exist and its all you will ever know in that moment. We're doing ok, just really gutted and worried about friends who won't handle her loss very well. We will definitely see her in the dreams ❤️

@lilyunsub You know how to reach me. If you'd like to talk, I'm here. I'd love hear more about her and if you have access to any of her works...

Ok is better than I expected. Hugs to you all. xoxo ❤️