Having to pull out of the only show we've been booked for in 3 years because of still healing from a back injury and abusive relationship trauma sucks a LOT. Have to keep reminding ourselves that its not a personal failure to put recovery first and to not be able to force recovery into a timeline that fits what we want to be doing. Still feels disappointing af though. When we eventually make it back to shows it'll be on our terms and all the better for it.