I got caught lying at work. I lied because the set up dictated it. I stand by my decision based on the information I had and the circumstances that transpired. All actions have consequences, and this was the consequence of not feeling heard.

(Passive aggressive rant incoming!) Dear partner--WHY must you be in the kitchen in exactly the same place as I need to be (fixing last nights dinner that was fucked up because you didn't listen to me even though you asked my thoughts on it). Also, why don't you know what a dishwasher is, where it is and what it does? Dear God, thank you for Lexapro.

Day 9 of moving. I feel like we did Everest, twice, two weekends in a row. Fucking stairs. I will say my stamina has held up, as has my sense of humor. Now someone please tell my partner that 🤨

We start moving tomorrow and Winter has decided to winter. Thanks, snow. You literally have been nowhere to be found ALL SEASON. I choose to believe that you will be up and gone by tomorrow morning!

Anything going on that's NOT superbowl related today?

I always dreamt of having a place that had SPACE. Now we are moving into a place that's got more space than we've ever had (a garage AND a basement AND lots of interior storage) and I'm finding myself a bit panicked. I don't know if it's because most of our furniture is the type that doubles as storage and now I don't know where those pieces go? Or if it's because the house was made for giants and I'm a Lilliputian? Or if it's because it's only been 1.5 years since we moved into this place? Oy

We went to look at the new place yesterday to get some measurements. Boy howdy did I totally miss the fact that this place was built for literal GIANTS! I am only 4'9"!! Everything is set up for someone at the very least 5'10" and WAY ABOVE. And for the first time we'll have more than enough space for everything. This is a new kind of panic attack. WTF do I put in the cabinets BY THE CEILING?

At 4'9", any closet is a walk-in closet.

I didn't know for the longest time that I was allowed to love myself. Now that I know I make it my mission to let others know that they're allowed. I get a lot of kick back, which sort of proves the point that people don't know how, or haven't ever considered it as an option. Here's how it works: Operating from a place of self-love means all day, every day, every decision comes with the awareness of it's origin: Is this self-love or self-loathing? It makes everything easier in the long run.

I will forgive but I will not enable. I will forgive but I will not enable. I will forgive but I will not enable. I will forgive but I will not enable.

#Fengshui Anybody here a Fengshui master? I need to know if I ought to stop having cacti in the house. I've had them for many years, I couldn't say that I experience what Fengshui would consider ruthless bad luck as a result, but as we are planning to move again if I should do it the time is now.

Happy 4-years alcohol-free to me!

Reminder: Remaining tethered to your bullshit is not the move. Sever. The. Tether! Allow space and practice receptivity and gratitude. Sit still, get grounded, breathe, release the unnecessary, and receive the fresh breath of newness. Reassess boundaries. Ignite new flames.

HAPPY NEWS YEAR!!!

Please forgive this moment of maturity but I now have a sense of how it feels when offerings of love are responded to with defiance or misunderstanding (like asking my partner if he wants anymore help with dinner and his response doesn’t read to me as being clear that I’m asking out of love). I see that there’s a disconnect and I want to understand how to shift it. I also know that I’ve been the projector, I know.

If you have HBO max, may I recommend "Leo Reich: Literally Who Cares?!" Especially if you dig queer comedians/humor. If you don’t, may I recommend "Leo Reich: Literally Who Cares?!"

Don’t tell, but the bottom layer of my cake totally fell apart and I just put a springform pan around it and mushed it all back together. Nobody will notice, right?

My philosophy of life is: No one is right, no one is wrong, everything is true, nothing is real.

Confession: I never wanted to get into it, but now I have and it turns out I'm a Manifesting Generator. And based on what I'm reading, yes, I am. And I'm an Aries. If you know, you know. I can also fully appreciate it if you also don't care.

Trying to "normalize" things isn't the way to go. The whole reason we have the issues we do is due to this idea of "normal", which isn't even a real thing. Remove normal, remove the social conditioning box, be free to live your life not in relativity to either of those things.