I've been processing... apparently my mother is telling people I threw something at her yesterday during the argument. And honestly, I don't doubt that that's what she believes at this point.
She's losing control over me and is trying to find things which can maintain it over me.
I am not going to talk to her until I feel ready, and that might be until after I move out.
I don't feel safe with her anymore.
@sentientdessert I don't know the details. Given what you shared, if I were you, I'd find a room for the night, then pack my 💩 tomorrow. Again, I'm advising based on vague circumstances.
If you don't feel safe, trust your instincts, and GTFO. Now.
@SSNBubblehead I feel like responding to this more.
For all my life she's been abusive, emotionally more than anything. I realized last night that it's been like living in a cult and finally having the realization that... it's a cult. Manipulated into doing things. Guilted into doing things. All for her benefit, or for her whim, even if it doesn't benefit her.
I have a path out. Family is helping me.
Tomorrow is my birthday and I'm spending it looking at apartments.
@sentientdessert I'm sending my best intentions to you. It might not work the first time. Or even the second.
I've been on your journey, friend. Solidarity. 👊
@SSNBubblehead Appreciated.